I first believed this in 2010 but got confused when what happened afterwards was the exact opposite of what I expected. Then, last year I thought I heard from you that this man is really the real deal. And then what happened this year got me confused again. I started thinking maybe it was just me who's trying to convince myself that he is the one you prepared for me because he's the one I wanted. That's highly possible, Lord, even though I took a vow that I would never allow myself to fall for someone without hearing from you.
It's exhausting, Lord. I am again affected emotionally. I am again asking when will this waiting come to an end. When? When? When? I am again starting to feel the excruciating pain of waiting.
While I was asking You, Lord, to indulge me in this because I needed it, there was this tiny little voice inside that was telling me You're not gonna do it this time... because this should be a matter of faith. I wanted the easy way out. I just really want to know I'm doing the right thing in waiting for this man. I wanted to know if I should continue to wait or be open to another possibility.
While I was asking You, Lord, to indulge me in this because I needed it, there was this tiny little voice inside that was telling me You're not gonna do it this time... because this should be a matter of faith. I wanted the easy way out. I just really want to know I'm doing the right thing in waiting for this man. I wanted to know if I should continue to wait or be open to another possibility.
I want to give up. But even that is also not an option. I feel like I am left without an option but to wait. How did this happen to me, Lord?
The fleece I was asking: If he sends me a private message between the time I asked for it till 11:59pm Philippine time of 10 Nov. 2012, he is the man you prepared for me. If otherwise, then he's not and I should forget him and wait for another man.
Lord, true to my word, I'm gonna do that. That's what I said, so I'm gonna start forgetting him... TT.TT Help me do this, Lord. This is a gargantuan task for me to do. I'm soooooooo confused!!! Lord, save me!!! I don't like what I'm feeling right now. TT.TT
Just heard the Lord telling me through Jacqui Saburido... Don't give up. Keep on goin'!
The fleece I was asking: If he sends me a private message between the time I asked for it till 11:59pm Philippine time of 10 Nov. 2012, he is the man you prepared for me. If otherwise, then he's not and I should forget him and wait for another man.
Lord, true to my word, I'm gonna do that. That's what I said, so I'm gonna start forgetting him... TT.TT Help me do this, Lord. This is a gargantuan task for me to do. I'm soooooooo confused!!! Lord, save me!!! I don't like what I'm feeling right now. TT.TT
Just heard the Lord telling me through Jacqui Saburido... Don't give up. Keep on goin'!
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