I'd been praying real hard in the past days for God to take away my feelings for this man if he isn't the one for me or put my feelings for this man at the back of my mind until it's the right time for it... Last night, I saw that he changed his profile photo on this messenger I'm using to communicate with him and my other friends. And without fear or hesitation, I sent him a 'Hi. How are you?' message. It felt refreshing because this time I wasn't craving for a reply from him. I just did it because I wanted to.
After 30 minutes or so, my messenger notified me of a message that arrived. Before I opened it, I told myself not to expect the message to be from him. But, it was from him. I felt happy of course. But it was different this time. The happiness was real, but it wasn't demanding and expecting too much. It was a bit restrained. I had to remind myself not to interpret what just happened to be something else.
The exchange of messages between us was quite short, but it was meaningful. I felt his concern for me. I felt happy because he cared. But again, I had to remind myself not to go overboard and start expecting and dreaming and craving and becoming impatient. I praise God for hearing my prayer. It's cool this way because I don't get impatient. It's safe for me this way. I get to protect my heart. It's good.
I still believe he is the man for me. I'm just no longer rushing and I've finally really submitted my feelings for him to God. You know, let go and let God. Life is good. I'm good. ;)
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